what is family ?

i always wonder what really is a family..

family is all the members who stay under one rooof? or family is just soemthing related with connection of blood?

i kinda sad tht i jz realise that my family contains 4 members instead what's in my mind is onli 3 members..i totally forget the last member of my family..my father..it's beeen two months or more i didn't saw him nor spoke to him....but i didn;t felt anything at all....

kinda pathetic is..after 2 months..he finally came back....what's comes to mind is wasn;t my father came back..it's just only my finacial supporter came back..old fella do came back soemtimes..it's just tht we duno after all..i dunno wat's in his mind tht he came back at 2am n went out work at 7am..wat's the purpose of coming back..is it because we are family..tht's y he jz came back..no matter wat time...just to complete his "job" as a dad? i duno..but like i care?

i felt kinda sad n pathetic tht..i had no hard feeelings at all heard my cousin told me he had sick for 2 weeks..my reply to my cousin told me bout this was "oh..ok"..tht's all..i'm not cold blooded..but thn..i really dun have any hard feeelings or any concerns to him....

i kinda jealous whn i can c family can sit together discuss soemthing togehter or have a good chat jz like my aunt, my cousin and my uncle always do so..kinda jealous the harmony feeeling..but thn..wat can i do..i can do nothing..

seriosuly i gotta thanks to my old fella..cz of him..i've learnt to appreacite my family member..at da moment my mom n my brother..n in future my love one (my gf or wife)...they are my everything..my father had really gave me a lesson....a man is respondsible is to protect their love one...i really can't afford to see tears dropping in front me again...i really knw how sad it is whn a man hurt a woman..i will remember it for life !!

thank you, my old fella...i'm glad u had everything, even now u're "promoted" as a Dato for duno wat negeri....but i'm sad for ya....u lost us...cz we had totally forget the appearence of you... i onli got one word for ya...i felt disgrace to be ya son..